Time flies. It's like not long ago since we graduated from cchms, and its like not long ago since i got to know u 2 yrs back. My phone was screwed up so your msges are like, gone soon becuz i have to send it for repair, and to realise that, you always put on a brave front back then in front of us people despite you not feeling so.
I miss the times back then with you, especially PSIloveyou and Its a Boy Girl Thing. Ha, thinking too muchh alr. Well, i feel hard up in me trying to be a mo sheng ren, but i hope i made a wise decision. I do not believe that you believe i will want you to be happy thats why i do so. I read our past msges, i feel so delighted, a smile from within my heart.
You know, to me, you're perfectly okay, but you always made me feel inferior. Maybe because i really like the chance to study and get to teach you, but i dont qualify for that. Anyway, im glad you love schl.
Its one and a half year more, and i suppose we wont even get to see each other maybe in this lifetime alr. Jiayou for everyth, despite feeling inferior, you will have my utmost support :)
Weiseng, signing off.
my story, your song.
5:15 PM
erm, i wanted to show this to u a year ago, but i didnt get the chance to. It was on my way to cch when i saw this on a cab. I was thinking how to sms in and when they showed, the letters come out one by one. The word Joanna was alr a surprise, and to add on the surname was an absolute stunner haha. enjoy your famous name :)
my story, your song.
4:37 AM
Maybe this will answer to your question.
Honestly, i did like you, but after u rejected me last year, the only thought in my mind is to assist you in regaining your confidence in your new friends and feel happy like you used to be before anything happen. Since you have achieved both, i need not be there alr.
You should forget (other than weijie and people like khaiqin and such)everyone, because they will bring you unpleasant memories. Thats what you should be doing now, and stay happy in your new class. I sincerely believe you will turn out to be another girl who is gonna be strong and confident and i am sure, you will graduate happily this time round :)
take care!
Weiseng ;
my story, your song.
7:51 AM
Its the first day of school today, and i guess it is an unpleasant one for me. Well, assuring both myself and you that i really start to love a girl, i talked to minghsun about my feelings for you. I told her i've finally found someone i am really fond of again.
I thought for the past 2 nights.. If i really like you, would i have the guts to tell minghsun that? if not, then maybe you're just another infatuation i guess. I thought about all those 'co-incidences' which i had with minghsun, and i thought maybe another love of mine will have to have co-incidences like what me and her used to have in order for me to build up another relationship. I thought, maybe we dont have, but maybe we did. the time when u msg me the 'im behind you' in sec 2 and then in sec 3 i got to know who are you and you are the one who actually did that.
Maybe you will want to know the real reason i like you.
Do you remember when we worked tgt? we were enjoying the buffet thingy and such, then i thought maybe i will like you, but you were still my mei at that time, so i dont really know what will happen and afterall weijie still likes you. Later, we went to changed and got to the manager there to write our names and numbers down. I remember after i wrote down mine, i helped you wrote down yours, and i remb your no. without even checking phone. Then i turned arnd and i saw you smile, which just melts my heart at that instant, as i felt a sudden happiness from you. aye, after all, these doesnt matter to you..
I hope you wont have any doubt about my confession, which you kept asking me why i will suddenly like you right.. and that day during orientation when u smile at me walking away, i was really happy, cuz i havent seen you smile since ages..
Everyday when the sky turns dark, i will think of the times at your house's park. I remb you accompanying me, and i was eating my fried rice with you laughing at me, that feeling is really, nice.
Let me stay by you these two years alright? Like studying together then i escort you home after dinner, do revisions during weekends if you are willing to and such.
At the end of 31st dec 2011, just before i get admitted into army(provided i never get retain), you tell me at then if you have grown any feelings for me is that okay.? This is my one and only request, J. I hope that.. you will agree to it. and i promise, i will never bother you anymore after that, since we are alr grownups by then, okay?
my story, your song.
1:46 AM
sigh, fall sick le. still thinking whether i shld go to school to attend the grand finale..
well, hope you're having fun now, with all the wet games and the preparation for finale.
hope that i can make it to school tmr.
my story, your song.
7:35 PM
Telling you that i like my class will be a lie. Honestly, i dont like my class, and i really wish to appeal out. My friend has been telling me that SA's cop this year is 9, so i will be in if i appeal. I know you wont believe this, but my reason for staying is because of you. I hate to tell you im okay when im not, i hate to lie to you if its not for a good purpose.
Remember you ever asked me if you were just another grace? i can tell you now, you ARE the closest girl i ever like before. i promise. Maybe you wont believe, but till now, i dont think i can get over you.
我喜欢你, and i feel happy for you that you have managed to get close with your class after knowing you for 2 years plus. 我真的为你感到高兴 (:
but.. seeing you close w your class guys, i feel rly rly rly.. sigh. well, if its not on last friday when i didnt manage to see you coming to school for orientation and felt so lost, i would not have realise your significance to me. maybe.. you will never come to believe.
knowing you can dance with a malay guy, i suppose you are able to interact with guys alr bah. maybe this is the reason i've been emo for these 2 days. but dont worry, even if you stead with someone in this two years, i will still be happy for you. and i will be okay =) Just stay happy like you never did in upper sec life and i guess i will be contented. Remb i will always be here okay? but i will still give you surprises on valentine's day.
take care, joanna.
my story, your song.
6:01 AM
i dreamt of going out with you and working tgt again last night. haiz. i still rmb how i used to find you in amelia. the period in july last yr, amelia was sitting beside me in class. she reminds me of you with every actions she do, very alike, and i even told her that. i thought how much i wanted to talk to you but i cant. now we're like strangers, and even though i took the initiative to tell you how i feel towards tis and in th end turns out to be fren, i feel tat we're already v far apart. everyday i longed to go out with you again, till night, have dinner tgt and eventually sit down tgt at a park/any place, to watch the night sky, the stars tgt. it is my dream, for now, but this dream, seems so far from me. i hope one day you will (by chance) come back to this blog, and fulfil this dream with me, aye.
ti amo, joanna.
my story, your song.
3:01 AM
